Snacks....the enemy!

Hello all! It's been a while but I'm here now. Things are great. Well...for the most part. Still eating lots of good for me food. NO JUNK FOOD!!!! But. I keep catching myself falling back into the snack trap. I'm eating snacks that are not so bad for you. Foods such as 1% cottage cheese, Multi-grain wheat thins with a laughing cow cheese, grilled chicken. The problem is I know I'm eating too much. It's habit. It's like if it's in the house I want it. I can't help myself. I know I'm not hungry it's just habit. A bad habit. Part of me is so looking forward to that first fill and part of me is having nightmares about it. Having the lap band put in was only the first step. After the fill It will become an actual tool. An active part of my life. Things are going to change. But I know I can do this. I already trying so hard.
The bathroom scales still disgust me. Not even checking them anymore. The numbers just don't change. They just fluctuate back and forth over 3 lbs. I hate those scales. But I know that something is going on. I feel terrific. So much energy. And I'm fitting into clothes that I have NEVER been able to wear. I bought size x-large!!! X-LARGE!!!!! And this morning I slid into a pair of 16's. I haven't been a 16 since I was 13 years old. Had to order new boots because my plus size boots are way too big. They wouldn't stay up on my calves any more.
Even though I know I'm changing when I look in the mirror it's hard for me to see them. I still pick up the 2x and 3x shirts at the store. I have to remind myself that they don't fit anymore. It's a tough road but so worth it. Still exercising but I know I have to go buy a really good pair of walking shoes. Lots of cushion and arch support. Thought about diabetic shoes. I don't care what they look like as long as they help me reach my goals. Can't wait till the weather cools off a little more. Walking in this heat is torture.....
Going to get some new pictures posted soon. Can't wait!!!

Just checkin' in!

Things are still going great. NO MORE PAIN!!! Not even sore anymore. Thank goodness. I feel great. Lots of exercise!! Walking at least 30 minutes a day. This morning Hannah and I went to the walking track and walked 45 minutes. It was soooooo hot, but we made it. Made sure we drank lots of liquid. Also doing leg lifts, butt lifts, crunches, crossovers crunches and other things like that. I try to do at least 15 minutes a day of that. Losing so much weight in my legs. Haven't weighed myself in a while. Not going to. It's too depressing.
My husband was home this week-end and I fixed grilled tilapia. Rob tried a bite and inhaled his plate. He even went back for seconds. I just laughed and said "thought you didn't eat fish?" I rather him fill up on fish and steamed veggies then country fried steak or double bacon cheeseburgers. So far he isn't fussing about the new menu. Hannah loves all the healthy new food we're eating. She has now discovered baby corn and thinks it's so cool.
Oh I have to tell you about my new favorite breakfast. I found these AMAZING chicken and apple smoked sausage at Sam's. There heaven on a plate. 1 sausage has 190 calories and 23 grams of protein. I have one of those and some egg whites scrambled eggs. It really feels me up and keeps me going till lunch. I know things will change when I get my first feel. But for right now I'm just enjoying it.